tree-ward

 

part 1

 

they walk into a forest where lights dance on trunks and the leaves are like green glass

they walk past mud-puddling swallowtails (one draught of clear water) past Knysna Louries

and the white glints of blue buck in retreat yes the forest dwellers a beloved and

she walk past the unbroken bend of rainbow bark

into a glade

 

 

half-turning she looks back

 

 

out of the dark burst

birds butterflies and

elephants trample head-on

the vegetation grows into a dense fable

rabid offshoots that snarl and

they flee

 

 

please oh please run faster

 

 

coolness a shoulder tap

 

 

dont look don

 

 

it licks her nape

 

 

look 

 

 

a shadow self looks back

the shadow is a feral lion-person the feral lion-person is a shadow

with ink-stained teeth

with self-sharpening teeth

full-toothed it lengthens and lengthens

 

 

a beloved grabs her hand

swerves right

bodies close to ground they crawl out of woodland

begin their climb          uphill winded  jabs         

in open space       

they are easy targets

but the lion-person-shade gobbles left coppice

shrill shreds

out of the bare picnickers of Manet

(Le Déjeuner sur l´herbe)

slits of

emptiness bleed through          pure canvas

a sun rise behind the paint

 

 

and like all artists she is singular

an oracle she shuts her eyes to see

into bushy mass

to mark the felling space

 

 

but the trees are already a congregation

a skeleton-man gives a sermon

booming words of bone

embraced by the muscles of his orchard

his words are his hands the firm hold of

a flying fox with long finger-bones

his hands are strong

his hands are primitive hammers

wild swings that pulp the treetops

(blood oranges or pong-pong seeds bespatter) a hit

in Aokigahara the cult that versifies corpses

pallid poetry

 

 

Sylvia Plath

People or stars/ Regard me sadly, I disappoint them. /

@ShokiMokgapa

 

 

once more she writes vastness for herself a place of

velocity          she is a tree-lizard

light of foot she travels between planets

to swallow alien insects

head tilted towards the sun

she sits in the belt of

 

 

trees like to gossip

still talk:

hierarchy saplings ruminants fire-risk

trees speak underground ‒                                                                                      

she is inside a Rockwell painting The Gossips (study)

in the second-last row a girl in a wheelchair animates

a child’s tale (Kyk Klara Loop) Klara is a delicate plant

kindling her tongue is a caressing wind

feverish breath

 

 

                                                    loath to live in fire

she morphs into a ghost moth

silver windows on nut-brown wings

moon-eyed

she looks everywhere at the same time

 

 

a little boy cries eyes filled with bruises

she climbs on top of his hands to soothe

the roughness is like a keurboom tree

riddled with eggs red and pink clusters

the boy buds abruptly

an oleander

with blooming fists

 

 

once more she wants to depart

and her lips form a cocoon

changeable she reflects

shot silk around her mobile head

spinning she turns into 

a bright yellow-winged swallowtail

with black holes ‒ a radiant heaviness

and she rises with the sun

and she swoops with the moon

a butterfly nebula

 

 

she looks down

 

 

and the forest is really a labyrinth

and a labyrinth is a map

dot about

punctuation on the ground

paint-powder

the dusty patterns of colour

contracting she points to

the heart of the labyrinth

her wings pixelate

a human body          she is a woman

and the forest is a fairy-tale with flightless birds

peckish

they strike

at dwindling crumbs

but she listens to untold droplets

follows the steep sound of

a waterfall

and drinks

                and drinks anew

                                            there she drinks in

                                                                            infinite self

 

 

the labyrinth is but a speck and outside she looks

 

 

at the valley of close-knit hills and sneezes

from copious sun and grass and pathways

(no other lone rambler around) affable alike

three women lead and she scampers to be

just another servant and her cells remember

the recital   

a call-bell

the sound of dogma

she stumbles over a dove

wounded

or ill

the feathers feel stiff

and all of a sudden she doubts

her first sense of

life in the little breast

a stirring

     a slight shift

the plumage moves her hands          exhales

newly hatched spiders

dropping the dove she slaps at legs

crawling underneath her skin

 

 

screaming she looks up for a long while now

 

 

alone

she runs away

in search of scree

to scrub off skin

to bleed spiders on crags

she forces her way through

bushman poison thorn bush khaki bush

sinks a bog in descend

she bruises onwards

with layers of dirt

the whole time looking for flow

a stream a river;

 

it gulps down air

a fast-moving youngster

its tail is that of an iguana

a white

blast

on brown water

there is a tree in the middle every branch

a waterfall

a rapid

water in riot

stepping in her legs give way

she submits

 

 

white

 

 

she glides out of silt

out of riparian land

a water snake

in a farm dam with a windmill

she sails sky-high looks about

shrubs on all sides

she sprouts new legs

 

 

on an earth road she treads mud and basks to a future grey in the desolate flats that persist

with each new departure she goes by road on the way sets pace she starts to climb to the top

 

 

of a dead mine and looks at

grass perhaps

green gravel on the quarry

beer-bottles dashed to pieces

she throws          shards

because she likes how they spur on light

as if her hands are a place of          take-off for shooting stars

her fingertips          spell out          sparks

 

 

transport to the other side

 

 

moreover the archway for an underground station

where the air breathes mould

and a woman sings

her voice is a flute the notes conduct and the woman is sound

reflection the woman leads and she is ritardando

in darkest shafts

through mountain’s masonry          echo

she follows

 

 

a headwind blows through the main tunnel looks out at a farmstead and hills of limestone

 

 

      whirling

 

film

 

          of

 

whitewash

 

          air

 

 

the notes are a current

wafting into the farmhouse

humming the woman indoors

to stillness

she is pregnant

silence

(she doesn’t know her core song)

irresoluto she resounds

to look within

the rooms are a TARDIS indoors a little girl laughs

 

 

where are you?

 

 

she runs from room to room

opening doors

some close of their own accord

she roams from room to room countless

times on the move too short-

winded

 

 

where are you?

 

 

a little girl whispers

listen and look

 

 

at tail-end is a kitchen:

 

dusk

the door bangs shut

something jumps on her back claws at her nape

screaming she tries to tear it off

but it grabs towards her face

she takes hold of it           and flings         

          scratched eyes

she can’t see past the pitch-

 

darkness of sticky blood;

 

half-light

the door bangs shut

something jumps on her back claws at her nape

screaming she tries to tear it off

but it grabs towards her face

she takes hold of it          she flings         

          scratched eyes

she can’t see past the spurts of

 

metallic red;

 

dawn

the door bangs shut

something jumps on her back claws at her nape

screaming she tries to tear it off

but it kneads forward to purr

nonsensicality          non-words

speaketh truth

like a primeval grasp

like the space          between lines

and a cat lives there in whiteness

her eyes are childlike

she hears

flute notes and the little girl laughs

the woman opens the door

 

 

good

now you may look outside

 

 

again she walks through the tunnel

there is a Jacob’s ladder between two pillars

she looks up

 

 

a beloved looks down

his smile ignites

a fiery particle

an almost

recognition

spark-off from fire

it flickers

out

 

 

she starts to climb

the ladder swings to and fro

full weight in armpits

it burns

she lets go

again she looks up

this time following the axis of heart

crosswise hands and feet

transcend          her fingers reach

and touch edges

 

 

there is rough stone underneath her palms

there is a stone floor below her elbows

she pulls herself up          and through

breathless                        

she inhales stone

a clammy coldness against her belly

she pushes herself to her back and looks up

                                                                       and up          and up

 

 

in a tower she turns sideways further on an oak door

fit for gods or angelic humans or star beings

trembles with the sound of a clarion

the trumpeter of war

at once an inset door beckons

she walks into chatter laughter the din of a festive hall

the lone woman in a suddenly aware horde and the floor is littered

with hop cones she notices a beloved on a bar-stool between

boon companions and even the bottles are watchful distortions

          she wants to flee          to light on sun to feel

golden pink warmth on her eyelids she wants to

be in the breeze

 

 

but all the doors look back at the underground station

 

 

the flute-woman and little girl await her

they point to the haven of pillars

a stone bay

 

and the little girl whispers

I am pure source white-

water deepening

flow the rose glitter

I mouth towards dawn

the little girl giggles

rainbow notes

dance in her eyes out of her ears into her body and

outside the polar lights dance

 

and the flute-woman sings

I am the tree

the branches that find higher community

I am the stream

the roots that connect with earth star and centre

the flute-woman is a whiff of rain

her skin is a green lake

the flute-woman reaches her arms are sprigs

her heels are haulms the evergreen stem

 

she swallows the deep

 

and becomes the little girl the flute-woman each and

every branch a waterfall her fingers spill bark she sits in her own

shade finds stream and begins to climb          higher          and higher

at times she rests in a forked branch                        higher               and higher

where swallows fly and where all forked branches are but an entrance

to water masonry soil grass trees life as far as she is willing to

look the branch-worlds stretch out and she climbs                                           even higher 

 

tree-ward

 

part 2

 

she looks up

 

 

the right-hand branch is forked

the leaves are translucent

an entrance

to water-berries copper-leaf trees umbrella trees to glints on trunks and leaves like

green glass Knysna Louries and the forest glitters with the white tails of blue buck

with brilliant dust in a pencil of rays with the wings of swallowtails golden powder

around black holes a radiant heaviness

like the sound of a waterfall continuous hills of flow towards

a tree that grows in the middle of a river

and the river branch off

the water is translucent

an entrance

 

 

to a beaver home in possible the same river

 

 

three frolicsome bears dive in at their side a billow over the wall

at the right side it lifts the swimmers the merry ones rise

in a waterspout          higher and higher          where swallows swarm

          higher and higher                                                                      to the crown

and the swimmers reach for bush for stone for an entrance to clouds a water slide 

and they are the seafarers they sail up and

                                          down

                                                        down

                                     down

                                              down

                                     eagerly

                              down

                         down

                     down

                 down

          faster

    down

down

in high spirits they arise and yet again the bears dive

 

 

that is where I want to be

 

 

in the water she looks at the playful bears at her side is a middle-aged man

gray hair on his Buddha-belly bald head glistens with drops of sunlight and he is

the beloved

 

 

you are just as aware of me as I am of you

sometimes we swim with the bears

 

 

a bear leaps

an ecstatic start

          the wave elevates

splutters of water in her mouth

in her throat

and lungs

 

 

I am going to drown

 

 

but her belly laughs

and her beloved holds out a hand a question a reassurance

 

 

not yet

let me

 

 

and I begin to swallow the spray to swallow my experiences

a waterspout          higher and higher and          the swallows are my friends

          higher and higher                                                                            at crown I reach

for bush for stone for an entrance to clouds a water slide

and I am a seafarer

 

 

I look forward to my return ride

 

 

everything is alive belly heart mind          I am

the-beloved-forest-water-swallows-bears-and-I-rejoice

when is the next time

 

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