Media Gaslighting: Refugee or "Refugee"

 

Dear Leo,

 

The first of my culture has arrived in the USA as refugees. The Media here and overseas and so many people there are reacting in a very aggressive and hostile way. They deny the persecution and the race-based murdering, rapes and discrimination that we are suffering and have been suffering for decades now.

 

The Afrikaners are being thoroughly gaslit.

 

It is like my marriage all over again, just happening on a much bigger scale. It makes me question all of the things that I have experienced and felt, all of the things that I still experience. It makes me question the realness of my suffering and abuse and whether I am the toxic one.

 

We are now being threatened with prosecution of high treason if we speak out about our experiences, even on social media or with friends.

 

I live like a hermit again. All locked in. The last race-based molestation with that last walk and the same day invasion in my yard and verbal sexual abuse and structure damages done by that other race men with their axes and that same night break-in were all just the last straw. I feel as if I literally cannot take or survive another molestation etc.

I now only walk when I need to buy something in the shops.

The black cashier who always has friendly small talk, didn't smile or talk to me today.  

 

We are between two and three million Afrikaners here. Around 30 thousand of us are actual boere/ farmers. Many of them are, unlike the tribal kings or the state-owned land, farm owners of the more arid parts of our country.

The statistics about land ownership make me so sad and mad at times, because it is blatant lies and manipulation of statistical figures. I cannot understand how journalists who are supposed to have at least a 3^rd year university level of qualitative research and literary research and quantitative research knowhow cannot do simple research and find the correct statistics. Instead, they use out of context numbers and everything becomes a political game that continues to escalate the racial tensions and the rise in race-based murders and assaults. The percentage given is in the first place only about the parts that are being used in an agricultural sense (not all the land of the country). Apparently only 30% of our country is viable for farming unless modern technology and things like boreholes are being used. There is only one real in depth and credible study done about landownership and even if you take the methodologically faulty study of the government the correct statistic is around 21%. The state owns more than that.

And, farmers provide for the country. You need land and vast amounts of it, especially in our arid country, to provide food for everyone.

 

The police statistics show that there are at least two farm attacks every single day and one farm murder every single week. These statistics don't include those who are living on smallholdings (not commercial famers) or the xenophobic attacks and murders in the towns and cities or the really, really big shadow figure. When you do not trust that justice will happen for you, you simple don't report any of the crimes or violations and if it starts to happen to you on a weekly or sometimes even daily basis, you become numb. There doesn't seem to be a point in making a report. You just push the new trauma down, or cry a little bit and then you try to take even more precautions. You live smaller and smaller.

The police statistics can’t be trusted. Too often police dockets get "lost" or get filed as something other than the truth or the full extent of the crime. There are even those who are shown away when they do report a racial-related threat or attack. 

   

It is not just the Afrikaners experiencing xenophobia.

 

Often perpetrators do not even bother to put on a balaclava when they go into the Pakistani or Chinese shops to kill those people. The law isn't blind justice here; your skin colour plays a huge factor whether you will receive punishment and the severity of the punishment. We, the minorities, know that justice has a double standard.

 

Yes, our country is extremely violent.

Every year many, many people are murdered. I think it is over 26000 people who are murdered each year, but I am not completely sure about the number.  

 

The number of our Afrikaner murders become insignificant in the face of that number.

Our deaths don't matter. It doesn't even get truly noticed.    

 

This afternoon I have heard that the owners have put the house in the market. The people that rent the house part in the yard think that the father of the owners, who is in charge of the house and flat renting, is emigrating too and that is why they are selling.

I am not sure where I'll find a new place that is affordable enough with what I make as a lightworker and that will allow pets. It is tricky to rent if you cannot show a definite monthly income amount and just the idea of moving again and paying a double deposit or more again and another admin fee and debt record check...real estate agents really don't like the iffy self-employed like me, even if my records show that I always pay my rent on time.

My kitties were strays that must have been born nearby. I don't know if they will stay with me when I move. This was the longest that I have stayed at a place since I have left my ex. It was the first place where I have felt safe enough to feel like I could perhaps stay for longer than a year or at the most two. I even bought a second-hand bed; second-hand bamboo couch set; plants and I started to grow things from seed again and put my art against the walls.

 

My kitties might be safer somewhere else though. It is only a couple of weeks since I have pleaded with someone sitting with his hand weapon in front of him to please not hurt or kill my kitties.

The Angels say that everything will work out and that my place is here. As a Lightworker I am where I need to be. I so deeply love Africa, I love all of her colours.

 

I will not apply for the refugee program.  

 

PS: Not that I can, I no longer have my birth certificate. I forgot to pack it when I left my ex.

 

When are you persecuted? What is the definition of persecution or of being a legitimate refugee if murder, rape, torture, assaults, genocide spouting politicians, being stolen from and 142 (or maybe it is 143, new ones keep on being added) laws against your skin simply don't count or are being called justice, lies or misinformation?

 

My maiden surname originates from HERE and yet I am not seen as a true South African. How many generations back, before you are seen as native and as one that is part of and belongs?

 

If not here, where is my earth home then?